If you're not th one .
Th unhearted
☺Age of 15teen .
St hilda`s secondary .
Easily moodswings , nd jealous.
That attitude in me , yoo cant handle .
Hate me , FCUK OFF.
My family doesnt even understand me , so yoo think yoo do ?
Friendster (:
Miss-cabbage@hotmail.com
Talk to me , speak with me .
Goodbye (L)
YvetteYanling
Jacqueline
Faith
Joey
Siu wen
Yushan
Hannah
Pohyi
Yan han
Adeline
Huiying
Boon how
Chomel
Deborah
Vanessa
Rachel.K
Pei yun
Justina
Charmaine
Lawrence
Tuesday, July 27, 2010, 6:09 AM
To Mandy :I saw what yoo`ve written on your blog .
Ask yourself ,
That day what was going on ?
If yoo all dint hide things from me ,
would i got so mad that day ?
I trusted whatever yoo all told me .
Thou i was alr doubting in th first place ,
i gave yoo all th benefit of doubt .
End up ?
I found out myself that i was just being a fool .
I believed a lie .
Everytime i dint have fone ,
Yoo all text each other .
I saw yoo all were texting one of th days ,
bud when i asked yoo all deny .
When i clearly know th truth .
I saw it w my own eyes .
To believe myself or what yoo all have been saying ?
I know bout it , i dint say anyt .
I just wna observe whats gna happen .
Yoo all showed me that i wasnt right at all .
Yoo all betrayed my trust fr yoo .
Instead of yoo all apologing ,
yoo all said yoo all cant stand me .
Isit th first day yoo all know me ?
I dint change , is just that i grew up .
Everyone is different .
I`ve my own personality .
Its not like yoo all dont know .
Yoo all dint tell me when i was wrong .
Yoo all told me only all on that day .
Thou i dint have fb , bud i aint a fool .
Yoo all write things bout me .
She changed her pw .
Guity or what ?
Then sunday ?
Yoo said if go tamp , yoo wont go .
Fine , i told her dont go .
I know its bored .
She insisted on tamp .
Yoo all say need go at 3 .
We cant come t a decision ,
I pissed nd said sua , dont go out .
Yoo also pissed nd kup th fone .
Then i called yoo all again ask where yoo all .
One say going church , one say go buy food ?
I believe -.-
End up ?
Lied again .
Yoo all say must build trust .
Is this what yoo call trust ?
Yoo`re contraditing yourself .
Yoo say i por cheryl , treat her v good ?
Yoo only know part of it ,
there`s much more yoo dk .
Did yoo see when we argue ?
Did yoo see when i attitude her ?
Its no , yoo only see when im nice t her .
When she make me piss ,
i also shout at her all that .
I treat yoo all as fair .
Bud one thing bout her :
She dont keep things from me .
Not say i whan angry or what ,
I angry fr a reason not just anyhow .
Did yoo see me shouting at yoo fr no reason ?
Thou my temper is bad ,
bud i do things w reasons .
Th Jubeat thing that time yoo also hear .
She can play th same thing over nd over ,
Why cant i just have my lunch ?
I eat what , also have t object ?
Then that time yoo all make me stand there .
I was so pissed that i ignore yoo all .
Id have t emphasise , yoo all know it clear .
Then now yoo all gang up ,
pinpoint at my faults ?
Yoo say i backstab yoo ?
Dont tell me yoo dint ?
Srsly , im not a fool .
I tell yoo bout her , yoo told me what she said bout me .
I say bout yoo , she told me what yoo said bout me .
Look , everyone`s backstabbing also .
Dont make me seem like im th only one .
If i wanted t por people , why not ?
Its easy t say things that sounds nice .
Im straightforward .
Id like t pretend in front of people .
I say what i think .
Eventually , its up t yoo all if yoo wna hear .
We all go out , yoo all take pictures .
Ya , i`ve pictures w her .
All old ones. (:
People ask me , i dint go w yoo all ah ?
Its not i dint go , is i wasnt included in th pix at all ._.
People ask me , how come yoo all suddenly so close ?
Its not yoo all close , is im not close t yoo all .
She says i xiasuey her coz i laugh v loud .
Who was th whan who laughed also ?
Who was th whan who only talk bad ,
bud nevr tell me she doesnt like it ?
How would i know ?
Im not anyone who can read people`s mind .
Im confused now srsly .
Idw just a sorry ,
w/o showing me yoo really mean it .
If id treat yoo guys as friend etc .
I wouldnt even bother t go out w yoo all .
Fyi , I can just switch off my fone t ignore .
When i say im tired , i mean it .
Bud 9/10 times , i still went out .
Yes , i`ve a fb now .
Do she have t tell yoo that ?
Ask her is there any problem w it ? -.-
I`ll text yoo all in a while .
Sunday, July 25, 2010, 1:51 AM
I miss my hair. ):
12:44 AM
Dont let someone leave w your destiny,Things come & go .
Its all pointless now .
My words wont help .
It hurts so bad now .
Commontest is like tmr .
Bud no mood t study @ all .
Someone told me :
"Dont take things too srsly. "
& Maybe i should .
Idk what t do now x.x
Dedications' time ,
(No order of merit.)
Fabian :
Hello Msn Buddy. (:
Your dedication narh .
Thou we just start talking again ,
Bud thanks fr cheering me up .
Improve more on your cooking ! ^^
My buddy always *Inserthearts*
Cheryl :
Babe , i know now yoo`re feeling down .
Remember everyt i told yoo k ?
See my heading. (:
Let go if yoo`re hurting too much .
Idw see a unhappy babe. ):
Cheerups , & i`ll be strong too .
Lets go thru this tgt k ?
iloveyou my babe *Inserthearts*
Charmaine :
Yo charmaine ! ^^
Remember my fav sentence ?
"Got miss me nots ? "
Yoo ah , lastlong w nicholas k ? (:
Thanks fr being there fr me too !
Anyt tell me , iloveyou *Inserthearts*
Yvette :
Hey sai !
Thou we only talk at skool ,
Bud thanks fr listening t me .
Especially when im so pissed .
Known yoo fr 9 years or so alr ah !
One thing good bout yoo :
Yoo understand my temper ! ^^
Anyt can share , iloveyou *Inserthearts*
Jeam :
Hello tabor , happy ma ?
See , i nevr forget yoo. (:
Thanks fr advices , nd encouraging me ~
Studies , i`ll try t buck up bah .
I`ve no motivation now sadly. ):
Bud i`ll try t find myself back .
I`ll stand up strong .
I make sure yoo toh !
Kidding ;x
Dont shy ah , must text me !
iloveyou , tabor*Inserthearts*
Jiajun :
Shortshort !!
Why yoo short huh ? (:
K la , kidding .
Thanks uh , fr talking sense into me !
I know something bout yoo :
Your maths is effing pro :@
Sorry ah , now abit no mood ;x
Bud yoo`ll receive a text soon ^^
Shortshort *Inserthearts*
Jm :
Only yoo two will know what it means .
As yoo all say , yoo all cant tahan me .
Im selfish , i`ve a attitude prob .
I admit i do , bud i hope this period of time ,
We`ll do a reflection on ourselves .
Noone is right now , all have their own faults .
Bud now its not th matter of whose faults ,
Bud if we understand what we were wrong at .
I just wna say one last time ,
Im mad coz yoo guys kept things from me .
I feel im not a part of yoo guys .
Yoo all could have just told me .
One lie , leads t another .
Tuesday, July 13, 2010, 7:38 AM
I aint ready,'Well , it had been quite some time .
Many things happened , guess thats life .
With a plus & minus , it`ll nevr be perfect .
I used t dread going counselling & all .
Bud now , i need someone t talk t .
Thought back of counselling .
Friends said i aint that cheerful anymore .
I just cant put all in words .
I just dont feel .. H a p p y .
I just .. many things .
Thursday, July 1, 2010, 5:50 AM
"Dont worry bout people in your past , there is areason why they dint make it into your future "
Not in th mood , so dint do any updates .
Will do it if i`ve th mood or so. (:
Holidays been out w {L} , my usuals .
{L} , this is fr yoo :
20 days tgt alr huh ! <:
Time passed pretty quick , i should say .
Imy alot ah , especially now. ):
Dbt , mom cut my line ;eeks
Must jy in your studies ah ~
I know yoo are weak in your subjects .
Buck up , make use of this 1 month .
Support yoo ah , gogo !
19 more days t a month *Smiley*
Lastly , iloveyoualot silly :-*
To my girls :
Thanks fr those who were there , fr me .
Regardless of what ;
Yoo dint leave me in th lurch .
Even how bad my attitude was ,
How dao i was when im mad ,
How my moodswings were ,
How cold i was in response ,
Yoo all still stood there still .
Tolerant of everything .
Craps/rubbish all whatever .
Yeah , now a thanks from mi2u. ^^
Have been sleeping in lessons & all .
Hai , bobian bad habit xx
Dint do any of holiday hw :x
{L} is asking me t study too .
Argh , i wish i could ><
Imalazybumokie :D
-Tryinginthprocess- Do not disturb .
Bai2 , calling {L} now .
Currently : Mentally & physically exhausted .
Thursday, June 17, 2010, 10:27 PM
Its not over till its over ,Okay , probation had ended .
Bud things dint get any better .
Th same old things ..
Still troubling me .
New ones had come , yet not solutions .
Idk what t do , bud i cant just give up .
At this time , there was this special someone .
It was {L} , thou went seperate ways fr times .
Guess fate let us meet again nd start anew .
Talked t {L} many things , really felt better .
Silly , nevr a 3rd time hor ^^
Updated , aint yoo happy ? *laughs*
Sua Mandy lastnight , it was f funny .
Couldnt stop laughing :x
She was shocked i guess ?
Heading out nao , imy {L}
Monday, June 14, 2010, 7:29 AM
1 more day ,Yes , 1 more day !!
Having counselling again on th 21st .
Heard that need report back hq fr report @.@
A day w Cheryl & co , Renny & Ben .
Guess im really addicted t taidi -*smile*
They were being very deesiao today :@
Homed @ 9.30 .